Heartbroken

Today is a really tough day. We sent our dossier to Ethiopia 1 year ago today and we are still waiting to bring Micah David home. In our wildest, worst case scenario dreams we couldn't have imagined how hard this journey would be, how many wrong turns and closed doors we would face.

Today, this is breaking our hearts.

We are heartbroken and heartsick because of more than just our burdens and Micah's absence.
We are heartbroken that adoption is so hard.
We are heartbroken that so many children that need loving families are alone.
We are heartbroken that there are families who WANT THESE CHILDREN but cannot get to them.
We are heartbroken that these children will always walk with a heart limp, trailing the dust of their loss and neglect.
We are heartbroken that OUR son has to say goodbye to all he knows and loves, someday.
We are heartbroken that this day has not come yet.
We are heartbroken that this day has to come at all.
We are heartbroken for the days we have lost.
We are heartbroken for the days yet to come for so many others who do not have love in their future.

God has led us down a heartbreaking path and must want our hearts to be broken. This realization is sinking into our hearts like lead, heavy and crushing. And we aren't sure why but we KNOW that He promises to work this for our good and that He does all things well. While this may seem like a heart-conflict to those that don't know our Lord and His son, it makes perfect sense to us.

While we don't understand why we do understand HOW.

Redeem, Oh Lord, Redeem