Reality Check

So, this family is going through a "reality check" of sorts lately. As time drags on between Micah David's referral and, well anything, we are beginning to realize our complete lack of control or even understanding. We are also feeling a bit out of sorts as a family.

On the one hand, we are IN LOVE with Micah David's pictures and the idea of him. On the other, we know we don't know him yet and so these feelings are, well, premature. Don't get me wrong, I know that God is working in our hearts to bind us all together. But, it's really wierd to LOVE something so much that you have never seen in person, touched, smelled, kissed, etc.

So often my mind whispers "Is he real?"

These feelings are so unnatural, counterintuative even. We were MADE to love this child but we can't yet. We were BLESSED with the ability to adopt him, but we are in court date/travel date limbo. After a while all of these questions pile up to, well, a big pile of questions with no answers.

So, what do we do? We get on our knees and pray that the Lord will continue to work as He has SO WELL SO FAR! We remember our stones, those reminders in our "river Jordan," this adoption.

We have done NOTHING to bring Micah David home other than fill out paperwork and write checks (many painful checks). On the other hand, God knit Micah David in his birth mother's womb while he was knitting the idea of him into our hearts. God preserved Micah David through severe malnutrition and poverty while he provided financially for his adoption. He enabled Micah David's referral to be the LAST baby referral before 6 weeks of drought, through which I am not sure we would have survived.

Most of all, He is bringing Micah David into a house of love because He first loved us.

So, this is our reality check. God is in control, we are not. Good thing.

Kim